So...
Let me quote Jim Carrey in Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
(one of the greatest fuckin movies in the whole world and of all times, but you probably know that):
"It appears this is my first entry in two years."
And this is my first entry....in general.
Yup, I was gone for months, and months feel like ages for a borderline person like me.
on a sidenote: yes, I am about 88 percent sure that I have borderline personality disorder and yes, fuck that. In that fast, supersonic, busy, cold world that we live in, that seems pretty normal, doesn`t it?
So....it appears that I am in that specific melancholic-optimistic-dreamy mood, I feel ready to talk, to dream, to live!
It`s all Freddie Mercury`s fault: I am reading his biography (for the third time) and I am so damn inlove. Not just inlove with Freddie, but with life.
And, of course, I am fascinated by the power of the human will, human ideas, human soul in general. I am fascinated by the act of creating art. I am fascinated by Freddie Fuckin Mercury!
Those people who can throw themselves in creating process completely are blessed, blessed.
And that`s why I write, and that`s why I feel crippled and lonely without my pen and sheet of paper.
Just saying.
Another sidenote: I feel damn ugly these days and I don`t have any normal photos here, in Sofia. Well, almost.
Aaaaaaaand I suddenly felt too damn lazy to describe my tangled, uneasy, messed up feelings, I also don`t feel so bubbly and lovey-dovey anymore.
It`s a part of being borderline, sorry.
But the main point here is: for a couple of hours (more like 1-2 hours) I was certain I love my life, my planet, my nation and being a part of that bunch of hobos, called "humanity".
Dear watchers or even readers, listen to Beatles, listen to Queen, plant a tree, kiss a child, make a lonely girl smile, adopt a kitty and please, please,
please,
c r e a t e.
But only if you actually are good at it.
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